My day was one of the worst days that I have ever had. Here is the story:
I began spotting last night and called my OBGYN who was on call. She never called me back. I called again this morning as it was getting worse and not better, they wanted to see me right away. So Michael and I jumped in the car for my appt. at 10:45. We arrived at the Dr. and waited about 1 hr. in the waiting room-gee, wonder why they call it a WAITING room!!!, and finally they called us back. Since my pregancy is considered High Risk, they wanted to do an ultra sound. So, Dr. Karon performed an ultra sound, and said that she could see the heart beat, but that the pregancy did not look like a normal one to her.
She wanted us to step across to another room which had a better machine that had better clarity, so we did. She did another ultra sound, and said that no, the heartbeat was in fact just a faint pulse and that the baby was growing outside the uterus. She said that things were not right, and that I would need immediate surgery and to clear my schedule for the evening, that she would be doing it tonight. Because as many of you know, a baby can't live outside the uterus! You can imagine the horror. The feelings and emotions that flooded us. The heartbreak that we felt. She then says that she wants us to go across the street to see a High Risk OB to gain his opinion.
So we walked across the street to his office. I filled out all my paperwork and they could see that I was visibly shaken, so they put us in a "holding room" to fill out the paperwork. Michael and I prayed for our unborn child and gave the situation over to our almighty God. I went to use the restroom and upon my return noticed the picture that was hanging on the wall behind us the whole time, that we had failed to see. It was a print of a Dr. sitting at his desk with his medical book with a puzzled look on his face and then it had what was Jesus standing over his shoulder guiding him and showing him the answer. We saw this as encouragement!!!
Finally, they call us into the ultrasound room, and they begin to do yet another ultrasound. The Dr. who introduced himself as Barry, his first name, began to read the results. This is what he said: You have a fibroid cyst that has attached itself to your ovary, and you have fluid around your ovaries. It is still to early to pick up a baby on an ultrasound, and what Dr. Karon thought was your baby growing outside the uterus is simply a piece of tissue that is floating in the fluid. He says " I feel very optomistic about this, and want to see you back in a week to do another ultrasound!" Go home and get some rest! He was a wonderful Dr. I told him he was my new best friend, and asked him if he had already had lunch, because If not, I was buying.. ha ha.
He also took my HCG level again, and the results were over 1200, which is very positive!
So that was my day... one roller coaster emotion after another, from my baby being in jeopardy to things being ok.
Michael and I talked all the way home about faith and how you just have to have it. It is an absolute must! God is in control and that is a refreshing feeling!!!! Even the best, most accredited Dr. in the world still can't match God and the fact that he already knows the outcome!
Last but not least, hang in here with me, I know this is long.... We got home and Michael was working on the church website, he found a neat website that he added where you can search the Bible for any verse whether it is by reference # or by category... he was showing it to me and we typed in ... for all have sinned... and it pulled up the reference # and then he said, or you can pull things up by reference like (and he randomly picked) Luke 1:14 for instance.... and I will have you know what the verse was:
Thou shalt have joy and gladness and many shall rejoice at his birth! Luke 1:14We have adopted this as our verse of choice... ha ha.
Although this day was not one that I want to ever live over again, I am glad that it happened, because it just proves that God is in control and we need to rely on his grace and mercy and his plan!